梦
若一个人一天的心情是在醒来的那一刻决定的，那我今天的心情一定是不好的。
并非是失眠所造成。昨晚的我，一觉到天明。
那又为何呢？
梦。
是的，就是因为昨晚做了个似乎很长很长的一场梦。
那可说是一场梦寐以求的梦。一场美丽的梦
真的让人有种失去理智的感觉，有种让人不想醒来，有种让人想永远地就呆在那梦的世界里，那种欺骗自己的感觉。最害怕的就是突然从梦中醒来。
但不醒来，似乎也没确保梦会永远的美。
可笑的事终究还是发生了。
美梦渐渐地变成了一场恶梦。
现实生活中那些不完美的片断再次上演。
迷惘。无能为力。
就在那种错乱的情况下被惊醒。
也许是因为那些在脑袋里沉睡的记忆又被那首歌唤醒，所以才无意识地做了那个梦。
也真没办法，别人要唱，我也没理由要人不唱。只好用双手覆盖着那双很想听的耳朵。
不知道今晚是否还会再一次做同样的梦。
但很肯定，梦里梦外的你的确就是如此的美。
陳奕迅的《想哭》-
老朋友了，再没资格不满足
w3i scribbled this at 11:16:00 PM -
自然
与某人聊天后，在道别之际，那人说在我面前能够很自然地做自己。
虽本人觉得这样的确是件好事。
但听了过后，让我想起也有另一人也对我说过类似的一番话。
我也不知该如何解释， 就是觉得有种恍然大悟的感觉。
但还真有点认为这也太巧了。
两个不同的人居然都有如此的自然感觉。
我难道真得如此吗？
自然。终觉得如此并非完全是件好事。
累了。 我也该去睡了。
w3i scribbled this at 12:32:00 AM -
Almost...The End
Time has indeed passed really fast.
Attachment is ending really soon. Graduation isn't too far away either. Three years of polytechnic life coming to an end real soon.
I look back and I guess I haven't really been doing much. But I guess it's been a pleasant ride so far. Afterall, met so many people...some have become friends, a few are really close friends and others, well, your "hi-bye" and "I know you but you don't know me" types.
Somehow, I know that there are a few who are really want to keep around for the rest of my life. I realised that I have never kept in contact with anyone from my primary school life and only a few from my secondary school life.
Making friends is just not one of my best traits. It's never been, was or is. In fact, I think it hardly will. I guess it's just not me to initiate conversations with others. Too often I have kept to myself. I know I ain't going to change this habit of mine though. It's just me.
"Cold", "Quiet"...lol...some words which were used to describe me. First impressions of most people somehow.
Whatever it is, like I said, I intend to keep some of these friends in the rest of my life. Hopefully, I am able to.
w3i scribbled this at 9:57:00 PM -
Secondhand Serenade
Fall For You
The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core
But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find
This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed but I have loved you from the start
Oh, But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible
So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold on to your words
Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you're asleep
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find
w3i scribbled this at 2:08:00 AM -
Take A Bow
All of a sudden, I am here to blog. Seems like it's going to be a rainy night. On-off rainfall though.
Can't believe that I am wide awake now. I know I am kind of bored with pretty much nothing to do. As of now, two chat windows open and Rihanna's "Take A Bow" constantly repeating on iTunes. Kind of like this song. A good set of lyrics, catchy melody and great vocals from Rihanna.
Speaking of vocals, I've been thinking my vocal abilities seems to be as stagnant as ever. I would really love to seek to bring my abilities to the next level. I know there are still tons of things lacking in my vocal abilities but I can't really pin point them. I need to improve myself further I guess...
I am really glad though, that I have been able to give advice to Jayson for singing...lol...seems like he's doing quite well and been receiving quite a few praises that his vocals has improve. Truly proud of him and glad for him. I credit his success to himself. I feel that he has really put heart into improving his vocals and that's what really makes the difference. Hope he continues to work hard...and I ought to improve myself so that I can give him more advice...lol...
That's it for this post...the rain is really pouring now. Keep yourselves warm!
w3i scribbled this at 12:14:00 AM -
Just My Luck?
I don't get it. Maybe it's just my luck. Somehow, all the places which I have worked so far, there always seems to be some sort of management problem. People who think that just because they are senior staff and so they have all the rights. People who just want to get credit but don't want to work for it. My view of the world is still the same, one word: digusting. We, humans are just pure digusting.
Notice I use the word "We". I won't say I am some saint or something. I am a big hypocrite myself sometimes and I would be the first to admit it.
But I hate it.
I hate it when people shout at me without reason.
I hate it when they talk to me about respect when they actually don't deserve it but I have been giving them the minimum.
Asking me to shut up? Saying that I am disrespectful? It's a management problem and I am just a student?
BULLSHIT!
I'd say my temper rose to my insanity level at that moment. I was trembeling in rage. It's a bad omen when I start trembling when I am angry. I know that I am in a state of mind which I will just lose myself and whoop that person's ass. I think it's like some kind of devil in me. Luckily I kept it in control. I can't remember the last thing I was in such a fit of rage. Got to continue to keep it in check, cause nothing good comes out of it.
As of now, I just want to quickly end attachment now. Finish off with that final presentation and report. And spend my well-deserved holiday, cloud watching and just chilling. I rather spend a simple and easy-going life. It's just so much better for me. I just wanna chill, sing some songs, enjoy my life.
But seems hard this days. I would admit I have not many friends to begin with. Maybe cause I can't really be bothered to make friends. I always believed that you don't need MANY friends. All you really need are a few CLOSE(!!!) friends. Well, with Jayson and Ed in NS, Qiang probably going to China soon and one turning into a complete asshole. More time alone once again I guess? Haha...
Let life take its course...chill
w3i scribbled this at 8:11:00 PM -
五月天 - 而我知道
Verse 1
冰块还没融化
你在看表
我笑的尴尬
你说最近很忙
改天聊吧
Verse 2
那天我在楼下
想了很久
想你说的话
你说爱情很窄
世界很大(而我们应该长大)
Pre-Chorus 1
就这样吧 就这样吧
我想我听懂你话中的话
Chorus
而我知道那真爱不一定能白头到老
而我知道有一天你可能就这么走掉
而我知道我知道这一切我全都知道
我就是受不了
而我知道我们曾天真的一起哭和笑
而我知道放开手但不知道怎么忘掉
而我知道你走了以后的每一分一秒
却还是这么难熬
Verse 3
微笑紧紧咬牙
给你祝福
你自由飞吧
你说温室没有
灿烂的花(你总是很有想法)
Pre-Chorus 2
就这样吧 就这样吧
我同意
可是我泪如雨下
Chorus
w3i scribbled this at 1:28:00 AM -
Pissed off
It's 3am and I am here blogging.
Just back home not long ago.
As of now, I just want to shoot an issue in the following post.
The evening was spent having a farewell dinner for Jayson as he was going to army soon. As stated, it's a farewell dinner for Jayson, so shouldn't it be like the purpose for this dinner? Someone please tell me, is it me or do I seem to feel like it's been used as a reason to meet and, paying full or most of the attention, to catch up with one another.
There's not even a proper toast to Jayson (except for the one Jayson, Kinet and me did). I can't help wondering, is this dinner truly for the purpose that it was intended for? Please keep true to the intentions, if not, please don't gather everyone or just don't give any significant purpose to the gathering. Cause it feels like the person is being used as an excuse for meeting up other people.
And also, someone just pisses me off.
Thankfully, I had a good time talking to Kinet and Jayson and I finally got myself a new jacket. Woohoo~~~
Sleep time...wonder when I will wake up...lol
w3i scribbled this at 3:09:00 AM -
Lethargic as ever...
I wonder is this the way I will be for the 19th year of my life.
Feeling lethargic, faking smiles and laughter, thinking of reasons for things the way things are and finally, feeling more lethargic than ever after everything.
Who knows? It could really be the way I will be spending this 19th year of my life. Or should I say wasting? Lol.
Well, ought to make some things clear to my mind of some doubts and not keep asking the same repeated questions again and again and again. Things should get better once I do so. Maybe, perhaps?
That aside, updates for last weekend. For anyone who is interested to know.
Last Saturday, met up with Jayson and Kinet for lunch, walking around and hopefully getting a present for Ed. Intended to meet with Ed actually to celebrate his birthday that day. But he couldn't make it because he erhem erhem...lol
Well, ended up not really finding anything for Ed (sorry boss!), it was kind of a wasted trip? But I still enjoyed myself nonetheless.
On Sunday, met up with Edmund and Jayson for lunch. White Dog Cafe @ Vivo. Soon joined by Hui Jia. Walked around Vivo. Chit-chat. Shopping. Dinner with Cassandra, Jayson and Qiang.
That's about all. Can't really be bothered to go into the details. It's going to be 1am. Guess I need some sleep.
w3i scribbled this at 12:45:00 AM -